Ok - this is tooooo funny. And not just a little bit spooky.
Characteristics of a Tiger
Passionate and dynamic, the Tiger is a stick of dynamite waiting to go off. They are born leaders and usually have the charisma to cause people to naturally follow them. Yet, they have a sensitive, even artistic side as seen in the passionate dancer, Rudolf Nureyev. They are also nurturers, and the Tiger lady makes a great mom. The downside is they are often hot-headed and foolhardy and may not always justify the faith we place in them to lead us. Their fault-finding and rebelliousness can be almost unbearable at times. Still, we love the excitement they bring into our lives and their redoubtable accomplishments.
Positive Traits:
Adventurous, affectionate, charitable, colorful, courageous, dynamic, empathetic, exciting, humorous, optimistic, playful and resolute.The adventurous and courageous Tiger is a born leader. You are not afraid to blaze new trails, and, given your independent streak, you are more than willing to go it alone if necessary. Your firm determination also makes you a fierce competitor.
Your passion also gives you the potential to be a star performer. Colorful and dynamic, you have a commanding presence before any group. Yes, we can count on you to command our attention and generate excitement.
Interestingly, you have another side, that of the playful kitten. It is characterized not only by youthful innocence and optimism but also a playful sense of humor. You enjoy telling jokes, which are all the more funny because people usually see your serious side and are caught off guard to see you out of character.
Your kinder and gentler side also includes a genuine humanitarian streak. You are empathetic and keenly sense the emotions and feelings of others, to which you respond with compassion and a sincere desire to help when needed.
Negitive Traits:
Anxious, argumentative, authoritarian, critical, domineering, edgy, impatient, impulsive, narrow minded, rash, ruthless, self centered and temperamental.
The downside of the Tiger's passion is that it can lead to emotional distress, especially when frustrated by people or events. You have a tendency to be anxious and edgy. This uneasiness of mind could come from brooding fear about some contingency or simply a feeling of being tense or on edge.
Your high energy level fueled by passion often makes you impatient. You want to do things right away and can become deeply frustrated with unplanned delays. Your rashness sometimes manifests itself as impulsive behavior. There is a bit of the fools rush in mentality in you. In other words, you do not always think things through before you act.
You have a tendency to be self centered; so, this hasty action occasionally fails to take into consideration its affect on others. Your focus on yourself can manifest itself in a form of narrow mindedness as contempt for the interests of others. You also can hurt others by being overly critical and argumentative when they do not perform up to the high standards you set for yourself. And, you almost demand that they do. Your sign is a strong one, and it is not surprising you have a tendency to be authoritarian and domineering. At your worst, you can even be ruthless. It is not wise to cross you deliberately.
Qualities Admired: Forthrightness, sincerity.
Pet Peeves: Boastfulness, pettiness
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
My little girl is growing up...
...Or Life, the Universe, and everything.
I need to preface this post with what I believe, or the rest makes not a lot of sense.
Though lately I have been writing about Buddhism, I am not a Buddhist. What I know about Buddhism would fit in a teaspoon. I am - for want of a better description - a Christian. Though I believe that Christ was a Buddhist.
The "church" would tell you that I am not a Christian. I do not believe in the resurrection of the body, I do not believe in only one life, I do not believe in the virgin birth, nor in the communion of saints. I doubt that Jesus died for our sins - I think he died because of our sinfullness, and that he died a political prisoner, just as we continue to kill political prisoners to this day. I do not believe in hell, and I think heaven is right here on earth. And I do believe in reincarnation (that being the resurrection that the bible is actually referring to...)
So - I am heretic. In the very strictest sense of the word. On a bad day I believe we are biological accidents formed in the randomness of the universe, and that we simply get born, we live, we die - and we assign spiritual meaning to this because we cannot face the existential void.
Ok - now why I really came to write.
I am in a new relationship. Its about 8 or 9 months old at this point, but its moving along sloowwwwllllyyyyy. Its still all about date night, and being on best behavior. No keys have been exchanged. We don't leave stuff at each others houses. I have yet to meet a single one of his friends. I have never been in any thing quite so slow before, and it bugs me - but I'm riding with it. I'm kind of bothered by it, actually. But I'm sticking it out for a while because this is something quite new to me....
I am having a relationship with someone who I have never known before. There is no karmic history. There are no past life entanglements. I do not recognize him from anywhere else... I dont feel as if I have "known him all my life" - and I must say, I am more curious than afraid, and that is new for me too.
With each man I have loved, we had loved each other in some other life. I had memories of them, or I could see clearly what the future would hold. I "knew" them in some inexplicable way that went deeper that dinner, dating, and sex. In Nicks case, we been around the block so many times before that I knew what would happen when I finally had a child - because I had memories of it. I knew Lisandro, I knew Marcello - I "recognized" them. Even my entanglement with A, even though it came to nothing, was sparked because we had known each other - I believe the whole entire thing about "soul mates" comes not from necessarily "belonging together" - but is rather based on this sense of having been around lifes wheel a few times together.
But now, I am with someone who I have never known before. I have a clean slate. Its fresh. But - can you REALLY love someone who you have only met in this lifetime? Can you ever really get to know them without a few lifetimes of prior experience?
Do I love him? Yes, freqeuntly. Am I "in love" with him. Sometimes. These are things I do not say, because I do not know how they will be recieved or understood - nor do men seem to really understand that love is taking out the trash and doing the dishes at the end of the day. Plus, just because you love someone doesn't really mean you have a lifetime to spend together - nor that you are even remotely compatible. Plus - I don't really KNOW how I feel, because - I have no experience with this man.
Having no frame of reference, no past life, no common mother tongue... it is like staring into the abyss. I have ALWAYS known the future. Now, I look into the future, and he is not in it. Yet, I find that unimaginable. There is something so "right" in what's happening here. But, I dont think he loves me, and I don't know that he ever will. Because like me - he has no frame of reference either.
The day he leaves my life and my bed will be a very sad day indeed. I like him in my life and in my bed. I like him. I think of him and feel very warm inside, but I also feel very anxious, because I don't know what will happen next.
But, I know he will still be here tomorrow. And I will just have to content myself with that. At least until that is not enough.
I need to preface this post with what I believe, or the rest makes not a lot of sense.
Though lately I have been writing about Buddhism, I am not a Buddhist. What I know about Buddhism would fit in a teaspoon. I am - for want of a better description - a Christian. Though I believe that Christ was a Buddhist.
The "church" would tell you that I am not a Christian. I do not believe in the resurrection of the body, I do not believe in only one life, I do not believe in the virgin birth, nor in the communion of saints. I doubt that Jesus died for our sins - I think he died because of our sinfullness, and that he died a political prisoner, just as we continue to kill political prisoners to this day. I do not believe in hell, and I think heaven is right here on earth. And I do believe in reincarnation (that being the resurrection that the bible is actually referring to...)
So - I am heretic. In the very strictest sense of the word. On a bad day I believe we are biological accidents formed in the randomness of the universe, and that we simply get born, we live, we die - and we assign spiritual meaning to this because we cannot face the existential void.
Ok - now why I really came to write.
I am in a new relationship. Its about 8 or 9 months old at this point, but its moving along sloowwwwllllyyyyy. Its still all about date night, and being on best behavior. No keys have been exchanged. We don't leave stuff at each others houses. I have yet to meet a single one of his friends. I have never been in any thing quite so slow before, and it bugs me - but I'm riding with it. I'm kind of bothered by it, actually. But I'm sticking it out for a while because this is something quite new to me....
I am having a relationship with someone who I have never known before. There is no karmic history. There are no past life entanglements. I do not recognize him from anywhere else... I dont feel as if I have "known him all my life" - and I must say, I am more curious than afraid, and that is new for me too.
With each man I have loved, we had loved each other in some other life. I had memories of them, or I could see clearly what the future would hold. I "knew" them in some inexplicable way that went deeper that dinner, dating, and sex. In Nicks case, we been around the block so many times before that I knew what would happen when I finally had a child - because I had memories of it. I knew Lisandro, I knew Marcello - I "recognized" them. Even my entanglement with A, even though it came to nothing, was sparked because we had known each other - I believe the whole entire thing about "soul mates" comes not from necessarily "belonging together" - but is rather based on this sense of having been around lifes wheel a few times together.
But now, I am with someone who I have never known before. I have a clean slate. Its fresh. But - can you REALLY love someone who you have only met in this lifetime? Can you ever really get to know them without a few lifetimes of prior experience?
Do I love him? Yes, freqeuntly. Am I "in love" with him. Sometimes. These are things I do not say, because I do not know how they will be recieved or understood - nor do men seem to really understand that love is taking out the trash and doing the dishes at the end of the day. Plus, just because you love someone doesn't really mean you have a lifetime to spend together - nor that you are even remotely compatible. Plus - I don't really KNOW how I feel, because - I have no experience with this man.
Having no frame of reference, no past life, no common mother tongue... it is like staring into the abyss. I have ALWAYS known the future. Now, I look into the future, and he is not in it. Yet, I find that unimaginable. There is something so "right" in what's happening here. But, I dont think he loves me, and I don't know that he ever will. Because like me - he has no frame of reference either.
The day he leaves my life and my bed will be a very sad day indeed. I like him in my life and in my bed. I like him. I think of him and feel very warm inside, but I also feel very anxious, because I don't know what will happen next.
But, I know he will still be here tomorrow. And I will just have to content myself with that. At least until that is not enough.